And So It Begins

What should a first blog post even be about? How should it begin? Chances are I'm going to be winging it, ADHD flailing its arms until I find some kind of direction. I'm going to write something, anything, once a day, until it just becomes a thing I do. The quest for a voice is dark and full of terrors. There will be failure.

I love great storytellers and especially comedy writers. They inspire me. But I'm no good at writing. I'm no good at it because I've never even attempted to write consistently. You're supposed to do the things you enjoy everyday to get better at them. Writing, drawing, live streaming, whatever. You need to enjoy the things to even want to do them all the time. I don't even know if I'll enjoy writing about what's in my head, my experiences, my life. This will be the test. The exercise. It's gonna be a fucking mess but I'm ready.

Then there's fear. Fear of putting the thing you make in front of anonymous eyes to be judged by all. To be loved or hated. Fear that this thing you poured your heart into sucks. Yes. It will probably suck in the beginning. Actually it will most likely suck. It's supposed to suck. No one's work is perfect right out of the gate. It never will be perfect. It shouldn't ever be perfect. If you tell yourself it is, you're a damn liar. Even the greats sucked in the beginning. And even their masterpieces aren't perfect in their eyes. This is why they're great.

This is how an art form is honed. Whatever it is. Keep making the thing, put it out there, imperfections and all, fear and all. Absorb the flaming arrows and the poison darts hurled at you. Then make more of the thing. Reforge it, polish it, burn it to ash and try again. But don't stop because of self doubt or fear. Chances are there will be a few who enjoy or even love what you make. Keep doing it for their sake and for the love of your craft. You'll move forward. Succumb to the darkness, and your legacy will die before it's even born.

This is part of my own journey. I want to create content that brightens someone's day, sends a message, leaves a mark, no matter how small. I want it to enrich my life, too. Whether it's producing a consistent live stream, writing a story everyday, or making art. I'm a creator, an armchair philosopher, and an idiot. Let's make it fun.